Thursday, November 19, 2009
Pull Together
Why is it that she can do that well but i cant? Why is it that others can do it, i cant? At times I feel so helpless and annoyed with myself, why can't I just concentrate, focus on my GOALS and chase after it? WHy can't i think straight and do things right? Why WHy WHY.
It's not that i'm jealous or what, everyone wants that too. Who wants to feel aimless and not do well in it? Who doesn't want to be the cream of the ******* crop? I need to be isolated. I need to turn into a full-time mugger overnight, at least prepare for the future ones to come. I just feel really lousy over tues's test. I have the sudden urge to be heartless, cold and lonesome just so that i can focus, give chase and get there, before anybody and everybody else. Like a Cold race.
Give me a break and put me back on track. I really need to clear and pull myself together. This is seriously not working out for me.
Talk in my flooble chatterbox! ( if your can\'t tag on the screen!(: )
