Monday, September 22, 2008
Well, it's not that i havent been updating. Just.. somehow quite a few things happened and, i don't really know how i should face and react to them.
18th September - I had insomnia, had some stuffs on my mind that kept me WIDE awake all night. Couldn't sleep at all. My friend commented i woke up surprisingly EARLY that morning. My friend scolded me to being late despite me waking early. ScrapbOOK making was merry. At least from the laughter and the fun from making it together. Met another person at night and caught up a bit. The night ended in an awkward note. Somehow i left with a blank mind.
19th September - The brunt from the event on the prev night hit me finally. Obviously i didnt sleep well again. Supposed to meet 2 other people today, ended up not being able to go due to tuition. I'm feelng tired from tuitioning. I need a life and something fresh. Had dinner with kaiye and somehow my mind just wasn't there during dinner. SInce i was already in a foul mood, i called Ben for drinks. Thank goodness he agreed and what nice ales we had. Did some crazy stuffs tgr too and i ranted about my unhappiness. Yes i was pissed and i scolded the subject related to my frustration. Ben helped though. It was good but at the end. I didnt feel fully the same as before.
20th September - Just past midnight, things became different. But it didnt feel different the way it should. Was so glad Ben was there to hear and be with me and sending me home. We just feel like shaking that person. I don't know if i should be happy with what i have done and received. BUt i do feel it's like not going to change anything and i guess i should not expect a single thing to happen. Later in the morning worse stuff happened. Screw them. Screwed tuition. ON a brighter note, It's Yiying's birthday! Happy birthday! Ben called and things just happened as i have expected. He did not expect that and am speechless. In fact he was quite angry. BUt, what to do? "We'll see about what's to come.." Perhaps it won't last long with empty talk. Not even the simple things that are totally not difficult at all. Disappointed, somewhat. Late yet? I don't know.
21st September - Cool way to pass at night. Happy birthday huiling! Had a nice bbq today and tried to veer from unnecessary thoughts! It was a good respite break from everything. Away from home. Away from..since, all shall flood me when i m back to reality. I need my courage again..As expected, nothing again..Very appreciative towards Ben for his comforting words from his email. Where are you? You said you will get back to me. ANd? i feel like forgetting it man.
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