Sunday, December 17, 2006
Thoughts ravaged furiously through my mind regardless of my exhausted physical body. Tired i may be, my mind felt sharp and awake. I tossed and turn as images of the worst flashed beneath my closed eyelids. I sat upright, but still could not block out those visuals nor thoughts. WHat should i do? i gave myself away, i'm to blame. i'm sorry.
Throughout the whole of this grey day, i haven't done much about my thoughts, probably too afriad to prod at them, afraid to be thrown into a dilemma i've gotten myself deep stuck in. Gorging at my books, i tried to let fantasy bring relief, at least temporary ones into my hurricane-swept mind. i still daren't touch them. Will i have another sleepless night again? im in guilt.
我已放弃了。或许我搞错了。对你的爱也许根本就不是那种爱，其实是兄爱？最好是兄爱啦，一切搞定吧。不怕不怕，一切安样。我还在想另有其人。放心，不是你。
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