Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Seriously you bloody ruined my cool, easy afternoon. It was soooo peaceful and relaxing in your absence. I believe i can never felt so myself and comfortable at home in your presence. Trust me. With music i picked from my CD shelf, playing melodiously on the player, the whole house felt warm against the bitter cold from the rain. No loud vulgars flying around the place, no unreasonable demands, no 'evil presence' ..Haha i am mean, but that's what you forced me to become against you. And i believe i can never get myself to forgive you and what you did before. You killed that little respect i had for you with your own bare hands. Do that again, i will turn you in. I'm serious. If you are out to harm us instead of protecting and love us, i shall be as ruthless as you to us. I guess that's the only way to protect ourselves from the person we're supposed to be closest.
You shattered the peace and quiet with your return. How i wished you will never return, or at least after i left the house. You forced me to put on the mask and lift my guard against others. You forced me to ....become another person, one i never wished to be..Have you ever wondered why i can never tell you anything or even carry a simple conversation with you? Wondered why i seldom speak much at home? You have never tried to put yourself in my shoes, never tried to understand how angsty we may feel, never cared a bit on how we feel, nor showed any tinge of respect for your children and growing teenagers. Yet you tried to hurt us, harm us? How is that justified? I will go out now. Can't stand your sarcasm anymore, cant stand you.
Talk in my flooble chatterbox! ( if your can\'t tag on the screen!(: )
