Friday, December 22, 2006
.Confused. .death and i.
There are many things that happened recently, which left me confused, thoroughly confused so to speak. To think that i have reached a milestone in life at eighteen, only to be embroiled with more strife and confusion. So much, altogether, in such a short span of time. I thought i could retain my sanity away from history, perhaps i was too naive to believe and proven wrong. My mind always have to race against time, to try to predict what might happen and how i should react, how i can survive. Death seems to have taken a liking to me, brushing past every now and then, bringing about the lingering threat to steal and do away with my soul. How long more can i withstand all of those? Each brush with death with that wielded weapon left me incoherently shocked and in tears without fail. Each shock brought about piercing stabs to my heart and mind. Unable to function properly, i shall cease to function one day, the day you finally took me , away. Unwilling i may be, perhaps that day you took me i might have been just an empty mindless shell. It's difficult how i should react, like i was in such dilemma some time back. It feels painful inside to what i'm planning to do, but my mind begs me to go on to protect myself from losing myself eternally. I am so confused.
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