Sunday, October 08, 2006
Worse haze...
夜深人静，大多数的人都应该已深深入梦。 我，却 睡不着。 可能是压力吧， 可能是我想太多了， 也可能是时时刻刻的那不知所措， 无奈的错觉， 把我弄得如此清醒。 陶醉在自己喜爱的音乐， 我仿佛又活在那甜美的幻想， 梦幻中。如此的 无忧无虑， 后无烦恼， 自由自在。那完美的感觉真是逼真，真是完美。 我 真不想活在那残酷的现实，那个充满恐惧，充满死路的生活。 我害怕挫折； 天底下会有谁不怕呢？ 我感到毫不自在， 好辛苦， 好痛。 有时真的顾问自己的 目的地。
一瞬间， 我仿佛掉入了一个无止的黑洞， 就是一直掉，连我自己都不认识了。 我失去了自己， 还在大海茫茫的 人潮中寻找自我。 也不知为什么 莫名其妙的， 我感到 自恨。 可能这一切都是我自己一手造成的， 万事的不顺利 都是我的错！我好累，好累。。真的好累了。。。我不想再打下这场打仗了。 我该如何是好呢？
It's been really hazy these couple of weeks, only getting more and more serious recently. It was just a low PSI of 50 two days ago. Today, in fact just now at about 9pm, it was a high unhealthy PSI of 150. The smog was so bad that it seemed to have engulfed tall buildings, dimmed street lamps, made the air really foul with carbon monixide and smoke. All thanks to the Indonesian arsonists who set the forest fires in a bit to clear the forest for a golf course. For a useless man made area for money caused the land to become arid and degraded, if not damaged, is it all worth it? Sometimes i really wonder if it's due to the case of money/poverty or some people simply have myopic visions of the effects of such destructions for personal gains. Knowing Mother Nature is dying because of our stupid human activities, why are we still harming her?
Perhaps i really don't recall the previous serious air pollution of similar case in my toddlerhood, this haze case really seemed quite bad. The air smells disgusting and raw. They sting our poor eyes, cause sorethroats and sickness. They suck in short. Visibility is so poor that i can no longer even make out the outlines of the Tiong Bahru nor just the block opposite my block across the road. Indeed it is THIS bad. Mom hopes that this horrid air wouldn't trigger my already dormant asthma since she knew of my difficulties in breathing recently. Though dormant she ain't taking chances. I suppose she'll make me wear masks out soon.
And i believe this smoke has also caused me to feel unwell as of now, feeling dizzy and headache-like. I gues i really should go to bed, perhaps it's due to the lateness now, perhaps it's due to my weak constitution, perhaps it's really the air..Goodnight everyone, and take good care.
The song i was listening to in tune:
Itsudemo dokodemo- joe hisaishi
(Always with me)
lyrics-
yondeiru muneno dokoka okude
itsumo kokoro odoru yume wo mitai
kanashimi wa kazoe kirenai keredo
sono mukoude kitto anataniaeru
kurikaesu ayamachi no sonotabi hito wa
tada aoi sora no aosawo shiru
hateshinaku michiwatsuzuite mieru keredo
kono ryoute wa hikariwo idakeru
sayonara no tokino shizukanamune
zeroni narukaradaga mimiwo sumaseru
ikiteiru fushigi shindeiku fushigi
hana mo kaze mo machi mo minnaonaji
yondeiru muneno dokoka okude
itsumo nando demo yumewo egakou
kanashimi no kazuwo iitsuku suyori
onaji kuchibiru de sotto utaou
tojiteiku omoideno sononakani itsumo
wasuretakunai sasayakiwo kiku
kona gonani kudakareta kagami no uenimo
atarashii keshiki ga utsusareru
hajimari no asa(no) shizukana mado
zeroni narukarada mitasarete yuke
umi no kanatani wa mou sagasanai
kagayaku monowa itsumo kokoni
watashi no nakani mitsukeraretakara
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