Sunday, October 01, 2006
tears...
It felt like a fairytale, it was one phase in life i can never forget. I treasure that phase i missed the old you. It was really amazing how we got to know each other. Through the passion we met and became friends through the most intriguing way. And our friendship survived amazingly through the sometimes choppy and turbulent times. I can never forget how you pulled me from the darkest time in my life when all seemed lost, how you taught me how to confide my deepest and most private emotions to a book called diary. How you helped me regain my confidence and my identity when almost all things go wrong. I felt really touched by all your little efforts that i love you. But amidst our little bonding, there are many external factors which may weaken this bond, this intrmolecular bonding likeby high heat.
Through so much heating, i was all relieved that we survived those through the years. Beautiful relationship we have since there's nothing in the world that is perfect, our friendship still runs a risk of crumbling. If love is about give and take, then friendship is about compromise and accomodating; or even both. You were one person i trusted my life with, amidst my many friends the one person whom i can share my mind with since young. I remembered how glad i felt to have found you. Now, i think it's not very fair to me to say that yea you were always there for me as much as previously. Somehow i am disappointed. My heart ached when you are always not there. Tears just flowed like now when i think of you. I believe that i have compromised and accomodated a fair bit already but i see no you, so what if we're near, i feel we have drifted and i m deeply saddened by that. What can i do? Or what more should i do? I'm worried whether we can overcome this again. Perhaps i should face reality, face that fact that one day we really have to part. I wished that day never comes but what if ? I don't know why i cant stop crying, can't control myself with what ran through my mind. the diary you gave me, i am still writing in it, filling the pages with my thoughts, my wishes, my sentimental things, notes, tickets, pictures, etc parts of my life. All with you to thank that i have someone( personification notes) to share with, she being all for me to fill her pages with my memories and give consolation to in times i can share with no other living persons. It's your freedom to be friends with anyone but it's just what are we? I want to let you know that i'm never angry as i told you i am but it's all just simple disappointments. That's all. But it hurts. Take care and i hope i don't have to cry anymore. I yearn for the past..I yearn for those good old times..
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