Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Indigestion
Gosh, i am really feeling bloated perhaps suffering from indigestion now still, but how? i only had porridgefor dinner and just loads of fruits? Well, fruits are supposed to be good and aids digestion, ain't they? Gah, how uncomfortable.
Anyways, decided to express myself and some thoughts that crossed my mind. No.1: Indeed i am pissed off. VERY pissed. Not that anyone exactly bullied me or what, but that was aimed at myself. For being so slackish that is. Me being a perfectionist would be rather approriate term for me, at least for this stretch of time period. Cant explain how i got here to become such perfectionist never such before but while i feel lazy to do work; at the end of the day i feel damn angry with myself for the slack behaviour which i would love to knock some sense into myself if i have such ability to. Apparently i cannot at that instant. Ha, reminds me of what i told Zebra about perceptions and views from a plane and being in a forest itself(= but it really holds rather logically true somehow. If you ever felt vexed before, that's the right feeling i felt.
My school's walkathon was like a total waste of time bearing in mind we had to travel all the way to school for attendence and then for the walk that lasted the whole morning from my school to MacRitchie Reservoir; where we will be dismissed thereafter. I only managed to start work in the late evening after dinner for i kept falling asleep on the cooling marble floor in the afternoon heat. Yes, it was freaking humid that i could not stay awake. Nevermind. I tried to read my vector notes and attempt the questions. I ended up on the verge of tearing the papers up myself inclusive when i cant solve a complete question. What the * i have not completed nor even touch the topics on integration and trigo, the two main topic in Maths *dies*I still cant completely agree to how JW suggested to put away unwanted worries, for all worries seemed just as important! Or rather i still cant categorise them and am quite affected by them. Argh. As ever, with such tremendous pain and more soon to come in the future, i cant help but feel resigned to my fate. I declare i am tired. It feel like driving without a sober mind...
Managed to watch a bit of the fireworks from my house, it's quite cool to watch from home except some tall landscapes that partially blocked part of the enchanting visuals. With the cool night wind blowing fiercely against my face, and with my long hair flowing with the wind, i felt peaceful, it was a short sense of relief..
Crap, i cant seem to be able to visit my own blog as in view sthg's wrong with my windows. And crap, have to go back to solving miserable vector questions...sighs..
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