Saturday, August 26, 2006
I think that so many things happened vigorously these few days or weeks that i can feel it draining me, both physically n mentally. Physically refering to feeling tired more; mentally refering to tiredness with having to strive on amidst the pain and peer pressures. Nobody will want to succumb to peer pressure; but i find it rather formidable force nowadays that it's begining to wage a battle between my mind giving up and concealing defeat against the pressure. I'm still holding on though but the thread is thinning, especially with my slow progress which fuels to my worries and drain on myself. I can't help it; i see that and experience that at school everyday.
Perhaps it's really that my health is ailing? My heart seems unable to take much trauma nowadays. Especially when coming into terms of shock, i could feel a tightening feeling like someone squeezing it. Or otherwise like previously felt; sudden jolting awake while sleeping. I hope it's not anything omnious with that, i don't want to be any sort of patients these few months. Let me pull through, especially the big A' levelsexams with more confidence and knowledge in acing them! Argh..i m worried, worried; how can i not? I can almost feel myself breaking apart inside..Morbid thoughts to end the pain often flash across my mind but i'm pulling on tight to whatever's still holding it together. I am holding to the thread of hope..
Vexed..
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