La~mour

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

他人的童话都成真了，我的童话也会像他人一样成真吗？

童话，童话。。童话里的故事都是这么美丽，这么幸福的。天底下有谁会不想活在这样美丽的童话故事里头？等待确实是一件十分痛苦的感觉。然而，等待若是为一件肯定 (会成真的东西或事件) 的事；那等待就会少些痛苦了，同时也变得更值得了。

富有愚昧又单纯思想的我，有些时候看着他人的童话或是理想成真；自己便会不知不觉地顾问，自己的幸福还是否存在。也许是我想太多了；也许我的确错失了机会；也许当时就不该那么任性，那么冲动。也许当初我们彼此都没心理准备，导致今天的结果。你曾说过：“只要你快乐，我也会快乐；我会为你快乐。“

我被你感动了；可是一切已太迟了。。。

I'm back! Was too tired and perhaps exhausted to blog yesterday night as well as the night before. In fact i thought many things have happened all of the sudden; all too much for me to absorb what has happened. Do let me elaborate on the days i meant to blog on.

-Monday-
Met up with Meryl meant to meet up with the rest( Jas, jiefu, kor; jie was not there though but fat cat came) at KAP Macdonalds. I can remember the Macs but not the bus stop to alight and we got lost. We took the bus in the opposite direction instead of the correct one. So, expectedly, we ended up at some ulu place. Poor Meryl, (she's gg to box my face) but i shant divulge what happened that day when we got lost. On fast forward, we managed to reach eventually; and mugged a bit there. Jie fu was late though but yea we behaved so prim and proper, obediently doing work until meryl, jasmine and her friends had to leave around evening time. It ended up i was the only girl left with kor, jie fu and fat cat :S
but well, managed to do more work finally b4 running for the stupid bus on a dinner-filled stomach. Oh yea, thanks kor for helping me chase that bus!

-Tuesday-
Gah, i ended school at 12noon, seemingly the earliest of all of us to be dismissed from school then. Anyway, i hung around school, waiting for the photocopying shop auntie to finish her stoning during her lunch break before i can get to photocopy my paper. (she was seriously stoning and staring into space at the study corner all the way until the last minute of her lunch break--OMG man)
Next, while waiting for the bus to KAP to meet the rest, meryl msged me, telling me that she'll be ending early and can meet me; and so we met at my school bus stop. we missed (Meryl please take note) 5 bus 151, 3 bus 154 and 1 bus 156. We manage to hop on the next bus 156; it landed us in some forrested estate in SIXTH Avenue. Oh man, our sense of direction was that great, but we managed to find our way and hopped on bus 151 which led us safely to KAP. PHEW. Yay, this time Da jie was coming down to mug with us. It was, ok la work done a bit but comparative to onday i thought it was a bit less; but yea, we all just had some chatting before we left the macs after jie fu and jas along with jas's company left. I simply could not belief i actually brokedown over that &^#&*^*( paper..but it was really demoralising and it definitely left me feelign even mor elost. Like falling into a bottomless pit( those who know me will know what i m talking about). It freaked me out i am scared i am feeling helpless i dunno how to face it nor solve that problem. I badly needed a break break from everything..It's suddenly that evening so much happened. I m at a loss too..I am tired..really tired.
When i missed 5 of my transition bus-961 and decided to walk my way. Ok perhaps it's just i have a really bad habit of walking home when i'm not feeling good and so i walked on. Kor accompanied me though i mentioned it was unnecessary( to kor: thanks for the company!). Was nice to chat while walking, at least kor was speaking more than he usually does in a group(=
Oh and the bus 186 uncle is sooooo nice! he saw me running for the bus and stopped before the bus stop so that i need not run further to the exact bus stop and waited! So nice right!

- Wednesday-(today)
I end school at 1pm but decided that since everyone's occupied with things (kor n meryl got stuff, jie fu and da jie also have got school) i went straight home but only managed to reach home at 2pm. Was surprised to see Lester on the same bus as me! On blogging halfway, my younger sis asked me science homework which i helped to solve and rushed out of the house upon realising that i was late for the badminton session with my 'family'. Frankly i am damn paiseh about my being late. To yall: very SORRY *shys away*
I though my badminton skills suck big time now shit.Seem to always play the tennis style in badminton drats. Dinner was nice-fish porridge at Clementi. I like the stew best. Then we headed home by bus. I suppose the smoke i've inhaled today contributed to my headache now, yeah a bad one a product for myself being a passive smoker tha fact i was within the range of active smokers accidentally.

Drown myself for the papers i have to take tomorrow. Urgh. *dead*

LA~mour at 2:58 PM