La~mour

Monday, July 24, 2006

Nolstalgia

Listening to: Swan from the Secret Garden

I was supposed to be online typing my guts out in a bid to complete my NYAA report. My hands went on to reach out for my stash of video cds burnt by my loves, friends, all whom i love. I had the sudden impulse to watch them. Why the sudden urge? Ask me not, i don't know. I watched them anyway. What flashed before me took my breath away, and made me teared at some. Not that they hurt me or anything but it was the the wave of nolstalgia which swept through me. Nolstalgia, a simple word yet it means so much. The videos my friends and loved ones took pains to compile and compose, and eventually burn contained many moments, happy and fun moments we had altogether. The fun i could never forget, the friends i can always remember, the memories etched forever with me.

The past, some may contain various painful experiences, while others may be memorable. Whether good or bad, i am still grateful for all that has happened and occured. Definitely no regrets to friends all whom i made along the way. It is true, absolutely true that without the past, there is no present, and surely not my present me too. Perhaps one may call it a milestone in life that one may feel as though he or she has grown up, finally. At least more matured than before, more sensible now than ever. My best friend commented that it's weird to see ourselves then in those video cds in the midst of our fun and laughter how we have grown. I agree with her, though not entirely for i found it amusing, and a also sense of relief to how we were then the childlike us, how happy i looked and must have been there and then. The CDs are not useless. I thought they are great to record my memorable times spent together with loved ones and friends. At many points in time, when we felt that we have never been happy, those videos gave me a sense of relief and some joy to know that i once had had fun, fun and laughter with people i enjoy being with, the fact i was that happy before. I suppose that's about the same reasons to why people take photographs- to keep a memory. Though videos are closer to home in feelings while watching when i can relate to that day better despite many years later.

I usually do not have much time or heart to put down my thoughts, but i felt the urge to speak my mind. My brother mentioned this at the end of one of the videos:

Yesterday's a History

Tomorrow's a Mystery

Today's a Gift

but we should embrace the future on what's awaiting us..

With a positive mind.(=

Some memories deeply etched..

LA~mour at 11:09 PM