Friday, March 17, 2006
If Only life could be as sweet and smooth-sailing as songs appear to be
Song i'm listening to: Piano Version of the Sky Theme from Final Fantasy X
Songs..that simply sounded so delicate, so mellow, so soothing..It makes me feel calmed. Perhaps even refreshed and nolstalgic. They sounded so...peaceful and natural. Sometimes it even makes me feel out of the reality. Like life's really that fulfilling and mellow.. Perhaps Life is really such, but from my perspective for now at least, it does not seem so. Upon listening to such music, i feel the need and want, to escape from what i am facing in reality and seek refuge in the protective soothingness of the music. Protected from the stress I have to face and facing this instant, protected from all unhappiness that has resulted..and all other burdens..
Am i really that strong as people perceived me to be? I can't answer myself to THAT question. In fact, i wonder if i have lost some parts of myself, Where's that old determined and persevered Cherie? Where has my strengths gone? Have I lost focus on my goals? Have I given up already?
I can neither confirm my thoughts nor answer those questions. My mind may think of an answer but my heart says otherwise..Perhaps like what people say, the heart and mind are all linked up. My heart aches when my mind tries to conceit defeat..And when that happens, i will go on with the strife and fight on..How long can my heart hold on? Can it always push me on? Is the Carrot and Stick way one good method to get me going? Or not..?
*confused*
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