Friday, July 22, 2005
*sickly*.pissed.I feel sad, disappointed, angry with myself. WHY. Why cant i do well for all, being able to manage everything well?! What loser i feel. And i do not want to retain!! but i jus cant concentrate, cant do my work, cant understand. I feel there is some grave problem with me. I ought to go n die or live in seclusion...i have been telling myself not o fall into that dark pit of depression. I know not whether i have fallen in. I wonder what barrier i have in me that made me so unable to concentrate..not being able to do my work. I feel as if my head's going to explode. Everyone definitely wants to do well for their exams who wudn't? But imagine how one who'd have probably fallen into that dark pit, feels about himself/herself?? And some people around him/her who keeps on nagging and ranting on without putting words into actions yet expect results from that downed person. It is just uttely demoralising. It is bad enough to have achieved that; do you think we wanted to get that? I m sick yes SICK NOW..yet feeling fatigued and tired, tired of everything EVERYTHING..I'm falling, falling on and on with acceleration ino the oit of darkness....Will i ever reach ground?or just keep on falling.......?
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