Sunday, May 15, 2005
sat..14th may
HEAVEN'S TEARING. so much has happened . terribly screwed . terribly terrified .it was supposedly a happy sat, yet it turned awry towards the end of the day..
i awoke with a clear fresh mind, wanting to finish my hws, inclusive of those overdued.
i ended up with little effect n results. nvm, i got some msges- which killed my mood. i shant say what but it caused my mood to nosedive. after that, i was in a state of disorientation. i felt at loss, not sure of what i shld do next. it felt like the end. had some chats wif sheryl and cheese on the fone for some time, admitted my tears flowed freely down my face while i spoke to cheese..i jus found it rather hard to accept it all, it's one reality i dun wanna take in. i m lost, back to square one...someone please help me. i need u, the right one. where are u when i needed u the most?
Nvm that, i felt tremors in the afternoon, around 1pm. Well, despite the intensity lower than the 1st (during midnight and terribly shaky), it put me on tenterhooks though. i felt suddenly claustrophobic. Like i need to get out of the building immediately tt kinda feeling. Luckily that feeling passed swiftly as the tremors came to an end.
Next, just currently, a storm occured. it poured, coupled with intense thunder and lightning. Apparently the whole of Singapore was hit. But it sux, the fact that i sat before the PC, which was just right beside the window. Every flash of lightning put me on guard. then one blinding flash and a deafening crack of thunder occured. Then all was pitch black before me.
i reckon my hse must hav been hit by lightning, and caused a blackout. i found myself crumpled and trembling from head to toe the next moment on the ground.i guess i jus cant overcome this phobia:S i couldn't hep it, i cried like i was a little girl 10years ago, except this time i was all alone in the dark room..helpless. i m still covering my ears now, even while typing. I am just too afraid of the next sudden attack...i HATE STORMS.I hate the way things are done UNFAIRLY. The world is not FAIR AT ALL...
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