Friday, November 26, 2004
It's all My fault!Better dead than alive!
Everything seems to be crashing down onto me right now this moment.I am feeling a mixture of dread,excitement,sadness,disappointment,nervous,bla bla...all kinds of emotions that one could think of.It, in fact, felt terrible in me.I dread it so!I feel so totally confused,so unsure of my every move,so insecure.I am ashamed with myself and my work that i have produced.Guess i have no one but myself to blame for ruining my 1st 3 mths next yr.i guess nothing beats better to blaming no one but MYSELF.i brought it all upon myself,it's all MY fault.:(I guess i have no other choices but to comply with it all.:S
Oh well,it's my dinner & dance prom tmr,as well as my graduation ceromony tmr morning.It all seemed so fast.I'm excited,elated,yet confused.Oh right,i'm feeling complicated.Can't stand it!urg!hmmm.tmr must wake up damn early,so i shall stop here for now la.shall say more the next time.Wish me enough...